I love you!

If you could look into my eyes, you will see how much i care.

If you could read my mind, you would know i'm always there.

If you could feel my heart, you will know how much iloveyou.

Yesterday after school jiu go home.. Then 6 plus went out again..

Then reached home before 12. Due to something..

Then talked on phone with YouYi, until 2.

Then i go find my friends again..

Slacked till 5.30 like that then go home change, prepare for school..

But still early so sleep until 6.30 then wake up.

Go Econ buy 2 cans of RedBull then transfer it into my Nike bottle.

But still got sleep in class for a while..

English lesson was playing with scrabble.. So i formed some wordings.

Recess i totally cannot take it, i cried..

Let Alicia, Evelyne and Yanuqun see my ugly side..

I want to thank them, for always being there for me..

Even though you are just listening, it's just good enough.

After school went to Rivervale plaza with Yanqun, Evelyne and Alicia..

They wanted to eat de.. But go until there jiu no mood eat le..

So went in KFC sit down talk talk until 3.10.

I walked Yanqun back to school cause she got choir.

Then i walk to bus stop take bus home..

Reached home around 4. (:

On computer immediately. Then was searching this and that..

Then feel abit tired jiu go lie down for a while..

Didn't have a proper sleep yet..

Now on phone with Yanqun.. (:

I don't know what to post le.. Buaiis..

Labels: ILoveYou

Monday night chat on phone with Alfred again..

Don't remember chat until what time..

Then tuesday morning can't wake up..

6.30 Yanqun call then i wake up.. Faster change then go school..

After school, went to Compass with Yanqun, Evelyne and Alicia to meet

YouYi, Alvin, Ah Meng and Ah Pui..

Met them, they went to Yoshinoya to eat..

After they eat then plan want to go where..

They wanted to go Kovan play pool.

But me and my friends don't have much time..

So decided to go void deck sit sit..

Until 4.55, Yanqun's mum called.

So we all go home.. Accompany Yanqun wait for bus, then i go home..

Reached home, forget call my uncle..

So he say until i get back my phone, i couldn't go out..

But i don't really care la..

After that, called Alfred.

Met him, went Hougang Plaza, met his friend, Ultraman, see them play billard..

I was also using Alfred's phone smsing Yanqun..

Met another friend, Valent. Then they eat dinner.

Then waited for LiJin to come, then went 424 there slack.

Until 12 plus.. They want go buy drinks.

So went back to mall.

Go NTUC walk walk..

Then they decided to eat supper..

After that, LiJin and Valent go home first.

Share some with Alfred. Slack till 2 plus then go 850 there slack..

Slack until 4 plus, Ultraman jiu go home..

Left me and Alfred.. So walked to my house downstairs slack.

Around 5.30 then go home..

Reached home straight away go sleep.

9 plus, my grandma ask me wake up go school.

Asked my sister up, she say she don't want go school.. Wtf..

So i prepare myself for school.

Went to Econ to buy sweet for Lionel.

Then go school.. Was damn tired..

Sleep during geography, maths got test..

I didn't know next page got question! But i think still will pass.

I was thinking about what Yanqun say about alvin..

So i don't really have any mood..

Physics chat with Andi and Warner..

Teacher keep saying us..

I fall asleep when school is going to end.. Hahas..

Then Lionel woke me up..

Took a stick from Alan..

Then went to RP with Yanqun, Evelyne and Alicia..

I was the one who keep talking.. Talked about me and alvin..

Hahas.. They listen until so shuang lor.. Keep asking me to say somemore..

Waited for Jillian to take my things then go home..

Reached home around 4. LiJin called..

Don't know how he know my house number siia..

Idiot.. Then he asked me where is Alfred.. Lols..

I told him he still sleeping.. Then he online..

He say he going have fever wor.. Siian..

Like that cannot ask him out liao..

Friday got problems.. Siian..

Don't know want go anot..

Give some comments leh.. Want go anot?

Saturday also don't know confirm going out with Yanqun anot..

But at night i confirm ask Alfred come out ton de..

I don't want stay at home.. Damn boring lor..

Only make me anyhow think..

Anyway, my phone got confiscated again.. This time is one month..

Want look for me? Then look for Yanqun.. She know how to look for me.. (:

I got nothing to post le.. Buaiis.. (:

ATHM, can you tell me how to not miss you?

Today, again, i miss you till i cry.. I don't know why..

But i really miss you.. I don't know what to do.. Haix..

Today didn't go school cause not feeling well plus tired..
So continue sleeping.. 9plus wake up due to sms and went back to sleep..
10 plus wake up again, also because of message.. Went back to sleep again.. Hahas..

Then woke up again cause AlvinTan called..
Met him, went to Vivo for lunch. Then uncle called.
Don't know how he know i never go school.. Siian..
We around 2 start eating only then he called..
Asked me reach home by 3. WTF, RIGHT?
JUST START EATING ONLY EH!
But i still listened.. We faster eat then cab home..
AlvinTan came up my house.. He fall asleep!
But whatever.. Not first time liao..

Then stayed at home watch korean drama..
Until 9 plus.. Alfred called say he walking to my house here..

So went downstairs to meet him and LiJin..
Slacked till 12 plus then go home.. (:
Had fun.. But i keep siian siian de.. Don't know why..
That LiJin very what lor.. Keep taking my things.
Idiot him! Was freaking cold downstairs cause damn windy..

Just now talked on phone with Alfred again..
He tired then go sleep.. I told him i will go sleep but i didn't.. d:
Ps uh.. Hahas.. Can't stop watching the drama.. (:

Later still got tuition at 9. Siian!
Still haven't do the homework siia!
No mood do also.. Haix..
I owe teacher alot of homework..
Haix.. I think i'll skip the work..
I go sleep le.. Nights!

Labels: IMISSYOU

Yesterday talked on phone with Alfred till 2.. Then go sleep.

Woke up at 5.30, got a message from LiJin.

Replied him then went back to sleep.

Was about to go school then Alfred message me..

He so early message me because he didn't sleep last night..

Then meet Jillian, go school together.

Maths teacher didn't come so sleep in class.

English was talking to Darrell..

Went library then talk to Lionel and Alan.. Hahas..

PE, others went out to run but that time i injured my leg still not okay yet..

Siian lor.. Although walk looks like normal but sometimes it hurts..

Then recess, borrowed money from Evelyne to eat but forget return.

Cause i never bring wallet to recess..

Then had chemi lesson.. Fell asleep also..

Followed by F&N, forget bring thumb drive..

So, did nothing..

Then was chinese.. Sleep in class also..

Last but not least, reflection.. Only write our targets inside our diary..

Then before teacher let us leave, she gave us sweets.. Lols..

I only took a packet of M&M.. (:

Some guys were grabbing like those aunty that are so kiasu..

Hahas.. Then walk Jillian home and waited for Ryman that bastard that made us wait so long.. Met Justin also cause we planned to go his house.. After that cab to Justin's house..

Stayed at his house till 5.40 then cab home.. (:

Did nothing the whole day.. Boring..

Now on phone with Alfred again.. Hahas..

I go talk to him liao.. Bye..

Anyway, nobody's replacing you.. Like you know, Alvin Tan is my bestfriend.. AlvinTan also call HongHong..

You asked me not to wait.. You said that.. I still got the message lor..

Then what you want? Tell me lah.. Before i went out with Alvin Tan that day, i messaged yoy and you told me not to wait.. I cried.. I didn't have the mood to go out liao but i cannot dua him again..

Cause i always dua him.. I don't want to lose a friend like him..

I really don't know what you want when you don't even tell me..

I miss you.. But only that i didn't tell you..

When i'm with my friends, i look happy.. But you think i really happy ar?

My mind is all about you.. Only that you don't know..

I don't know what to do.. You make me feel really lost..

Labels: IMISSYOU

Saturday, went to uncle house for dinner.. Was damn full.. Hahas.. Fun also..

Caught unglam video of my aunty..

Sunday, morning, went to pai my grandfather..

Then went tiong barhu to visit Gu Ma and ate lunch there..

After that, went to my uncle's house for a nap..

Then at night go for BBQ! Ate till damn full also..

Monday, da gu came my house.. Was suppose to go for movie but didn't.

Cause no seats.. So stay at home and gamble.. Win $40.. (:

Ordered KFC to eat.. Hahas.. Then went out ton.. (:

Yesterday, went out with HongHong. Went to Vivo, ate Pizza.

Was damn full also.. Then cab to Serangoon for dinner.. Was damn full..

But still stuff myself cause must give them face..

Morning, meet HongHong then go school.. Ate KFC..

Then after school go eat with HongHong also..

My weight is going to increase because of him..

He keep bringing me out to eat..

But i'm happy to go out with him..

It's always fun to go out with him..

Then at night met a friend of mine.. (:

Now at going chiong homework liao.. Buaiis..

Meeting Jillian tomorrow morning.. (:

I'm also lost.. But you and i will find our way eventually..

Iloveyou.. So i'm waiting..

I don't know why.. But i just don't wish to let go..

When it's time to let go.. I will. But not this time..

My instinct tells me.. I don't know if i should trust it.

I don't know why.. I don't even have the new year mood..

YiHong also like that.. Wtf lor..

No mood lately.. Nobody pei me go slack.. ):

But had fun on wednesday.. Went swimming with friends..

Saw WeiJie.. Hahas..

Just now, i was looking at Compassvale's school magazine.

Was looking for Alvin's photo and WeiJie's.. Hahas..

Alvin look so cute.. Look through their sec 1&2's class photo..

So cute can? Hahas..

Yesterday met YouYi to take back my things.. Thought can meet Alvin.

But I can't cause too late le..

I need accompany my sister go buy her new year clothes..

Then thought of me and Alvin saying that i'll accompany him go buy..

I also didn't know i can miss him till i cry. He's the first.

Haix.. I MISS HIM!

Just cannot stop thinking of him..

Will update asap.. Buaiis..

Labels: ALVINTAYHUIMENG, IMISSYOU

AlvinTay!

This post is for you..

I don't know what you want and what you are thinking..

You don't say, i don't know..

I only know.. I very sad..

You made me cry for you..

See my crying for you, you very happy ar?

Haix.. I don't know what's wrong with you la..

I also don't know what to say.

When you know what you want then tell me la..

Don't like that ignore me jiu okay le..

Labels: I've fallen for you..

Yesterday morning, woke up at 5.55am to wake baby up.

I cabbed to his house to find him.

Stay at his house until 11.40 like that then take bus go 140 meet his friends.

Went up to his friend's house till 2 then cabed down to chalet.

When we reached the chalet, we are still okay.

But don't know why, he started to ignore me..

I was damn bored there. So kept smsing YanQun.

Then around 6, i told him i go walk walk..

So i went to the beach alone. Sat there.

Thinking what's wrong with him. Did i do something to make him angry.

Sat til 7, felt hungry.

So went to look for KFC. But before that, saw KaiXiang, HuiTing and MeiQi.

So ate together. After that, went back to chalet.

Sat there alone. Cause i still don't know what's wrong with him..

I feel like crying lor.. Wtf..

Then my uncle came to fetch me.

Reached home, shower then went out again with my uncle and grandma..

We went to visit my big aunt which i never see before except her pictures.

Cause she left home.. Then now i got 2 more cousins. Hahas..

Daughter, name Cassandra, age 14 going to 15 this year, which is same as me.

Son age 10 going to 11 this year, we have the same birth date and month.

It's like wtf!

So stayed at their house till 11.30 like then leave.

I keep smsing at their place so was Cassandra.

Then they asked us exchange number.. Wtf lor..

So exchanged. After i leave then i message her..

You know what? They say her say until like angel and i'm like devil.

But it's not okay.. She more guai than me but her results aren't.

They say she after school jiu go home but you know what?

She go home change then jiu go out..

Her mum don't even know!

She also skipped school, only she never get caught.

Aiya, anyway, we're almost the same only she more guai and she don't smoke..

But i'm quitting already. (:

Anyways, i'm having flu. My nose is blocked! I hate it when i have flu.

Because i got sensitive nose. So it takes a long time to recover.

It's fucking annoying lor..

So siian lor.. Today didn't go out cause yesterday went to chalet already..

Anyway, must save money to prepare gifts liao.. People's birthday are coming up.

Need go do homework liao.. Buaiis..

I got no mood to post but something really big happened..

I'm now fucking stressed over you..

Think about how your parents feel..

I know you know they love you..

So stop disappointing them.

This time i managed to convince her..

But i can't help you forever..

I know you don't want me as your friend le..

I can also do nothing..

But i want you to know, i'm always there for you..

Hope you will change..

I think you upset her pretty much that she thought of something you will never know..

It shocked me.. It really did..

Yesterday, recess time, i injured my leg.. It's damn pain lor..
Then something happened to Alicia.. Don't wish to mention..
Don't ask her also..

Today morning meet Yanqun.. Waited for Alicia.. Went to school.
During FRC, DM said that Darrell and ChinJie was caught smoking at RP.
I was like WTF!?

Then i was trying to find out what happened..
Managed to find some la..
Then recess played basketball again.. Hahas..
My baby is going to kill me if he saw this.. d:

Then after school went to eat pizza.
After eating went to print photos..
Then off to YuhZhen's house.

Left her house at 6.25.
When leaving, ChinJie's mum smsed me about something really big..
I don't want to say out..
I convince her not to do it and i managed to..

Then also managed to convince him..
Hope can have dinner with his mum on monday..
Miss her real lots..
She feels happy talking to me cause i understand how she feels.. Hahas..
Miss her lots also.. Hope she won't think of that again..

I gtg.. Grandma scold liao.. ):
Byess..

Labels: can?, Let's be friends again

Short post.. But will post pictures tomorrow..

After school went to Compass point eat Sakae Sushi.

Around 3 like that eat until around 6.. Hahas..

Me and HongHong eat first.

Until 4 like that then was waiting for YuhZhen and Aloysius to come..

They reached around 4.30? I don't know..

Then ate until going to 6. Then was being cabbed home..

So good right? I injured my leg.. WTF! Haix..

But nevermind la.. It's okay de.. (:

Go to go.. Bye!

This picture is so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Morning, woke up at 6.15 to wake baby up by calling him..

He woke up and said that he will message me later..

So waited for his message until abit nai fan then i messaged him..

Then around 6.40.. Arthus messaged me.. Lols..

Message was about someone.. Hahas..

I don't want to say.. If not she'll kill me..

Then fall asleep.. Until 8.16 am.. If i'm not wrong..

Woke up due to my mum calling.. Then called HongHong wake up..

Prepare myself then go meet him, cabbed to Rivervale Plaza to meet Jillian..

Had breakfast at KFC. Then came alot of people..

Did my maths homework there. But didn't finish all..

Went to school after that..

Today had geography test..

Teacher go through all the answers but i forgot it when i see the paper..

Haix.. What a bad memory..

Maths lesson was next.. Bored!

Haven't hand in my work.. Later must do..

Don't know also must anyhow do.. Don't care liao..

After school went to Hougang mall eat pizza hut with HongHong.. (:

He treat.. So good right? Hahas.. Then went to his house to study..

See! I now so guai liaos.. Hahas!

Then went home at 5.30.. Reached home at 5.58. Before 6.

My aunt say, keep up the good work, hahas..

I didn't reply.. Cause i don't know how to..

Then something happened.. Lazy to mention..

Aiya, lazy update le.. Buaiis..

Labels: AlvinTay's Jessy..

Alvin Tay.. I hope all this gets into you head..

I don't know why.. But i feel insecure today..

I know the previous post, you may not like it..

But what i know is.. I love you..

You say when i'm outside you worry about me..

Then you think you outside i not worry ar?

I can only go out on tuesday and sunday..

Even you settle finished your friend's problems, you can still come find me de right?

But you didn't.. Then forget it lor..

I told you i want HTHT with you.. You say okay..

It's one hour already and you are still not home..

I don't know wtf you want.. I don't know wtf you are thinking..

But i know my mind is all about you now..

YanQun told me things you won't want to hear..

But i still need to tell you.. Cause i don't want them to hate you..

Just like him.. You know who..

I just hope you understand how i feel.

Anyway, about going out with friends..

They are merely my friends and it's been a long time since i last hang out with them..

My aunt gave me permission to go out, me and you are lucky already..

But give me some freedom of my own.. For now.. Cause they also mean alot to me..

I don't want to lose them just like him..

I don't want a repeat of history..

Today was supposed to go out.. But baby had something on..

So went home after eating KFC with HongHong, Aloysius and YuhZhen..

Met Levi at KFC also.. Cause he's going to Cj's house.. So talked awhile and he left..

Saw Eileen, talked.. Went off with HongHong to withdraw money..

Went to the print photo shop to see photo frame.. Then HongHong cabbed me home..

See! My bestfriend, HongHong.. (: Long time never take cab together le.. Hahas..

Reached home.. Smsed my aunt, told her i didn't went out..

My uncle started to nag about me cutting his nails, my father ask me go down buy newspaper..

Then my grandma about her nails too..

Then she wants me to help her change curtains..

Changed, then bedsheets too..

Then mopped floor.. Was fucking busy and tired..

When eating dinner, i was smsing with YanQun and my uncle KPKB!

Say since you like him so much go stay with him la..

Which he thought i was smsing a guy but no.. Too bad.. I wasn't.

Then he keep KP me smsing..

I was like.. What has it got to do with you?

It's not like you are paying for the prepaid..

Hack care him.. But HE IS SUCH A FUCKER AND A PAIN IN THE ASS!

I'M STARTING TO HATE HIM! WHEN HE IS AT HOME, THERE'S NO PEACE..

Even my grandma was pissed off by him.. Hahas..

Wanted to do homework.. But forgot! Haix..

Tomorrow morning wake up do.. (:

I go sleep le.. Nights.. (:

Anyway, YanQun, ps ar.. But i really want him to know.. (:

Labels: Feeling insecure..

I'm going to smile like nothing's wrong..

Talk like everything's perfect..

Act like it's just a dream and pretend,

he's not hurting me..

Morning wake up 6. Didn't meet baby.. Left home at 6.30. (:

Met YanQun in the morning at 119 bus stop, waited for Alicia..

Went to school.. (:

On the way to school, Jeremiah smsed me..

Saying he miss me so he smsed me..

Pei him sms until 8 plus..

Then he suddenly never reply.. Don't know why..

Smsed baby for 3 times.. Going after school then he reply me.. Haix..

He say he on medicine again.. So he was sleeping.. So, he didn't went school again..

After school, went to KFC with Lionel, ShunJie, WeiZhong and my sister..

Ate, Lionel they all left first cause my sister was still eating..

Suddenly saw Levi.. Ran out to talk with him.. He say he going ChinJie's house..

Talked for a short moment then bid goodbye..

Saw Jillian, SayWu, Eileen and HongHong.. (:

SayWu asked me for cigarette, which i tell him i don't have.

Cause i don't smoke and i'm quitting.

HongHong went back to school to look for Aloysius..

I'm really happy to see Levi again today..

But all my thoughts suddenly was ChinJie.

There's alot of things i want to let him know.. But i don't know how to say..

Anyway, i'll be visiting his mum asap.. I guess.. I have to tell my baby first..

Cause i only can go out on his off days..

I'll confirm the timing with aunty first then go visit her.

Due to my lack of freedom.. I have to confirm everything before i go out.. Haix..

It's really annoying when you have no freedom.. Everything have to report..

Haix..

But i think i'll visit her during CNY. But i won't stay there long..

Cause i know somebody won't want to see me..

I'll be automatic.. I will. No worries..

Even though how much i say here, i know you won't come and read..

I know you too well.. I can even know what you are doing right now..

Haix..

I go do my homework liao.. Buaiis.. (:

Labels: I'm trying my best to forget everything about you..