I love you!

Today is last day of school also the day when we get report book. Siian lor..

Morning BF was suppose to come but he didn't cause when he sleeping he dropped his phone. So i went to look for him..

Today took pictures with friends but some don't want siian lor.. But nevermind.

Took back report book at 11.15 , left school at 11.30. Went to BF's hoouse again til 3.15.

As for result, my position was 21/39, but that time i see is not wors! Haix.. Siian diao.. ):

So. i reached home at 3.50. Show my report book to my father. You know what he say?

Wa! Your result so lousy arh? Maths get 72 still want to take A maths? You got no music talent, cause you get C only. Still say your science good, but get so low marks. Still failed DNT .

So i shoot him.. In order to learn A maths, i just need to pass maths. If i don't take A maths i have to take Literature, i rather take A maths cause i don't like literature. Music is not learn about music but watch movies only. As for science, the paper is not easy, that's why. I HATE DNT. So that's why.

I hate my parents, when they see my results, they say so bad and all those. Maths get A2 still not enough meh? I only fail Geo and DNT leh. Other still pass, like that still not enough?

I don't get it, when we fail alot of subjects, they say why do so bad? My result is already average! I know i can do better, i am still trying but they just make us feel tat how well we do they still think is not enough.

WTF lor. Don't know what they thinking siia! ARGH! Forget it, i don't want to know either.

Today, i'm going to my uncle's house to stay, i think. Not very sure. Sunday going church so can't meet BF for two days. Gonna miss him lots. But not only him. Still got Evelyne, Alicia, YanQun and others.. You can sms me but i may not reply because my uncle don't know i got handphone. Erm.. So.. Ya.. You guys get it?

I will take more photos at my uncle's house and show you guys my cute cute cousins de photos.

Bye! Miss me ohh! Hahas..

Ps to disappoint you YanQun. It's not in this computer. Next time lah.. Okay? Hahas.. Lazy to upload..

Morning, went to look for BF again, go school together. During archery, had a bad mood. I don't really know why.

During Scirnce lesson, went to AV room to watch 17 again. Didn't really watch it, was taking photos with friends and laughing about BF disiao-ing SayWu. Hahas.. Laugh until stomach pain.

After school went to BF's house, slack.. Until 6 then go home. Hehes..

Okay.. Now i'm super busy.. So, buaiis..

OMG! I seriously miss my side fringe! AHHH!

Okay, let's talk about today.

Morning, went to find BF. Go to school together. Skipped maths lesson because need do corrections for EOY;s paper. Only our class need do lor.. Haix..

Then had geography and science lesson.. Those 2 lesson was so boring.

Then had chinese lesson. Chinese is the best! We watched a vampire show. Was super funny. Hahas..

After school was suppose to go CP with BF and friends. But BF went home. Went CP eat Long John Sliver. After that went shopping. Had lots of fun..

After that went to look for BF left around 3.50pm and reach home around 4.30.

Tomorrow morning BF coming find me. Yay! (:

I miss 1N3. I don't know why. But i'm going to miss 2N3 too.

3 more days to holidays. Holiday must still meet up ohhs! Will miss you guys lots lots. Next year still hope to be in the same class, for some of us lah. No all.. Cause i hate Shun Jie that group of guys. Hahas..

I hope holiday can go out until very late. Really hope so. But it's 60% impossible. Cause i got bad records. Haix..

Haix.. Can't tarhan Evelyne. Take picture like this. She arh.. Make use of every moment to hit me.

Pathetic eh?

Siian.. This few days number of things happen. Family, friends, relationship. But relationship okay le. Yeah, and it's like kinda my fault. But everything just need to be forgiven and forgotten. If cannot then too bad le lor. Nothing i can say. Hahas.

As for friendship, it's not my problem it's my friend. Although i don't like the girl she is starting to dislike but i'm trying to help her not to think about it.

I think this is pretty funny. Hahas.

When you see this must be greatful hor. Kidding lahs. Hahas.

About my family, it's about my grandfather's left over money. Haix.. I want to help but i'll just get scolded. Any opinion? Tag often okay?

Just hope everything will be fine soon.

Today is not a bad day. Got results back.. But not overall. ):

Geography: SA: 34%

Maths Paper :61/85 SA: 71.8%

History :52/100 SA: 52%

English Paper 1: 29/60 (Failed) Paper 2: 44/80 SA: 52.7%

Science: 42/100 SA: 42%

Chinese: SA: 63.8%

Art: SA: 50%

Literature: (25/50) SA: 50%

PEPP: SA: 54%

DNT: 63%

Some paper didn't get back today but got it the yesterday. I'm not happy with my maths result. I lose to Nicholas that idiot and that ugly cleaner! ARGH! Science abit shocked because i failed. Didn't expect to get 63% for DNT because i always skip that lesson. As for Art, i only draw sunflower with weird colours. Heng heng pass Literature and PEPP. Hahas.

Still quite okay with all the results noy for maths not happy. Haix..

I WANT RETAKE MATHS PAPER! But can't. ):

I PROMISE, I WON'T LOSE TO THAT CLEANER AGAIN!

Today, woke up at 9.30. Went down to buy breakfast for my family. I very guai right? Hahas..

After that went to KangKar to wait for CJ. He took so long because he go PS. I think you all know what i mean. So ate breakfast with CJ at KFC, was damn full. Then go up to buy cigg. But aunty was there. So waited for SayWu to come. He asked and auntie gave. So chua sai lor. Because normally she don't sell to us. Bought, went to CJ's house.

He mapled and wasted time. So reached Hougang Mall late.

Went to look for Alicia, Evelyne and YanQun at 2nd floor. The North don't know what shop lah. Alicia pierce her ear. She was holding my hand cause she scared. Hahas.. If it's me, i also will ba. Hahas.

(Ali, i not laughing at you hor.)

Then when to top floor outside smoke. Then went in, shopped. Then go eat KFC.

After that CJ and SayWu jiu go home le. At KFC, Evelyne disiao SayWu till very jialat lor. Hahas.. But SayWu and Evelyne very pei. I don't know why.

Who agree?!

So we 4 girls went shopping again. YanQun want to buy a bag. So went to look for it.

Found and bought. We took NeoPrints. Not very nice cause that stupid machine. So went to HM de staircase took lots of photos then go print. After that went to CottonOn, saw some sunglass took and play with it. Hahas.. Took photos again.. Hahas.

Then walked out of HM, was about to leave, we continue chatting then Evelyne go buy drink. Then after finishing her drink all went home le.

Really had lots of fun. Go out with them laugh until stomachache. Super fun. Hope to go out again asap.

Hahas.

I wear this sunglass nice mah?

This past few weeks had been slacking, didn't study for exams. Slack too much until never update blog.. Hahas. Don't really have confidence for the paper but i think can do quite well. Saturday will be my grandfather passed away de 7th day. Haix.. So fast one week le.

Then, 2 weeks later will be HOLIDAY! But go out got timing. Not fun at all.. But still better than cannot go out. But maybe not going out. I should be working somewhere. But i don't feel like leh.. How? Any advice from you guys? I won't be telling you all. Hahas..

I got nothing much to post about. So i'll just end it here.

Btw, tagged often lehs!

Reached home yesterday around 2 to 3. Immediately on computer. But was super tired because did not sleep on the last night of funeral. I was at the void deck accompanying my grandfather the whole night. With my brother, father and uncle. We were playing dai di to keep ourselves awake. But i don't feel tired that day although that day got exams and woke up at 6.

But was super boring there. Only can listen songs, play PSP or dai di and sms. But nobody pei me sms accept CJ lah. But until midnight 3 plus if i'm not wrong. Then he go sleep liao.. So i smsed Alvin, he playing maple and nothing to chat with him about so didn't sms much. He say will ton but 5 plus go to sleep liao.. Lols lor..

I wasn't really sad. Until we reach Mandai the burning place, idk how to spell. When we going to see him the last time, i cry like fuck lor.. He going get burn that time also. Super sad. The whole eyes became red.

I miss my grandfather siia..

After that alot of things happen, then reached home around 2 plus. Tired then go sleep. Wake up around 6 then went to Lionel's BBQ. Was pulled and pushed down the swimming pool. So shiok. Then, after a while guard came, all ran up to Lionel's house. Siian lor.. I was the only girl there but good cause got guys help me take food i no need take myself. Drank beer also. Really had fun. Hope to stay there longer.

So reached home around 12 cause was accompanying CJ.

Anyway, we patch back le.

I got no mood to post. Just to let you guys know, my grandfather pass away le. I'm not really sad lah. Cause maybe to me it's a good for him cause those pain won't torture him again.

We'll always remember you.

Anything just sms me @ 83509450.

I'll try to reply ASAP. I'm fine. No need to worry.

This guy shuai mah? Don't think too much. We are friends only.

I think not really.

Morning woke up at 6. Called Cj cause he called me. He ask me to meet him. But didn't cause he say don't want liao. so forget it. I also saw Lionel on the bus. But he didn't see me. He damn pajiao. So went to 108 find Darrell. Met him. Slacked a while then go school.

Reached school alot people ask me why i break with him. Do i really need to explain that much? When it's time to go, you simply have to let it go. Get what i mean?

Went to Lan after school, drink beer. So shuang. I still have it in my bag. Going to finsh all tomorrow.

Siian.. This whole week no money le. Fuck man..

Btw, Hou You so stingy. Got money also don't want lend. Hate him!

Thanks for giving me such GREAT memories.

I'm back to single and it's great man. Single is the best! I left him today because it seems that he doesn't appreciate me. He doesn't cherish what i do for him.

He doesn't fail to make me cry on my birthday. Not because i'm touch but because i'm sad. He always give me excuses to not send me to bus stop or so whatever.

I don't know what to say anymore.

Just one thing, i still love you.

But i don't want to make myself regret again.

I also know, you won't feel sad for sure.
If you do, you won't treat me that way.

By the way, i'm fine. Thanks for all those who cared about me. Thanks a whole lot! Love you guys to the max!

Friday, my grandfather fell and had 6 stitches on his head.

Saturday night, he fainted and was admitted to the hospital. I was with CJ, Alvin and YQ, when i got a call from my sister say maybe my grandfather CMI le. I was so scared. But later i'm fine. Didn't get to see him yesterday because my brother don't want to go, so my father ask me and sister to stay at home. So waited for their news. He's stil okay but have difficulty breathing andunconscious. He can hear us, we know but he can't open his eyes to see.

Now, he wake up le! I'm so happy. I'm waiting for my uncle to come and fetch us down to see him again. But still when i see him, i don't know what to say. But after all see him okay jiu happy le.

Ohh. anyway, yesterday celebrated my birthday and lantern festival with CJ, Alvin and YQ. But mood was spoilt when i got the call.

Lastly, THANK YOU GUYS! For all those concern and celebrating my birthday. It's the best birthday and an unlucky one to have that kind of calls. But still, thanks a million and love you guys a million.

BABY! THANKS FOR WHAT YOU HAVE DONE FOR ME FOR MY BIRTHDAY!

LOVE YOU!

My baby buy de. Hahas. Not bad lah the cake.

Siian.. Can't go out unless it's 4. So fucked up lor! Why can't i have my freedom back?

I don't know why but these few days i'm in a bad mood. Thursday was pissed off by KM. Yesterday night was CJ. This morning is him again.

I'm wondering:

am i asking too much from him
am i giving in too much
is he taking everything for granted
if he really love me
am i important to him
am i treating him badly
why am i in love with him
will he change
is his friends more important than gf
should this continue
how much is he willing to sacrificed for me
if i should end it
WHAT SHOULD I DO!!

Seriously, can somebody give me all those answers? I'm very confuse right now. You know, yesterday i was so sad that i cry till i sleep. I don't know why but my tears keep dropping and never stop. My heart is hurt over and over again. I just hope he can cherish evrything i do for him before he regret. Cause i know it will be sooner or later. I really had enough you know? I regretted already but it's too late, things can't stop now or it will be hurt even worst. So, if can, i just hope that my feeling fade for you and just end like that. But i find it impossible. What can i do to not have feelings for you? Tell me.

Even though it's my birthday soon. But i'm not happy. I want nothing from you, just think about my feelings when you read this.

One more thing, you say you will change. But have you changed? If you think so let me know. I'll let you know the truth, if you really had.

If you think yoy have found the one that you love, MAKE SURE they love you back.

Hello?
YanQun here.
I'm here to scold one boy.
Which he had been "bullying" his gf.
Can you care more about your girlfriend?
She's your gf right?
Care more about her then.
People ask her go die or what,
Did you even care? Haha! You didnt.
Didn't leh uncle.
Don't you think she'll be sad?
You don't even care.
Seriously, you're not fit to be her boyfren.
Only a kind hearted girl like her can tolerates you.
Have you think of what's she thinking?
No, you didn't.
You dont' understand her well.
No one can tolerates her bf to be NOT caring, not sweet.
Which girl can tolerates that?
Only one. Which is Jessy Choy.
I'm here, as her fren,
Helping her. Not ruining your relationship or what,
Can you just think of her?
Do you think she want so many people to go out with you?
She's a girl leh.
You know what's date?
Something's fun to you might not be fun to her.
She's sad,
Why?!
Because of you.
Because she loves you.
She's angry,
WHY?!
Because of you.
Because she love you.
She felt like crying,
Why?
Because of you.
Because she love you.
See, every thing is about you.
Know why everything's abt you??
Because she loves you.
I think kissing or what is what you only want ba?
As what last time the CDP lesson had covered about,
Boys only wants to show off to his friend he've got gf.
But they don't love her much,
Are you those kind of boys?
Please, be fair to her uh,
Don't hurt her anymore.
I hope you think about what i've said.
I didn't mean to ruin ur relationship.
But i hope u can be fair to her.
Think , didn't she treatyou well enough?
Every morning, wake up sooo early,
Just to go ur house and wait for you?
Know why?
She loves you.
When you're are at LAN,
She's cold, did you do anything?
You didn't? I suppose you didn't do anything.
She's her gf, and when u see ppl wanted to kiss her,
Or what, Did you do anything also?
No, you didnt.
She must have felt sad aren't she.
It's just that she didn't say.
Why didn't say?
Because she love you.
Going out.
A date for a couple don't belong to a lot of people.
It belongs to 2 ppl, which is the couple.
You may like a lot of people,
But did u ever think, Do Jessy like many ppl to be around also?
No, she don't like. Not that she don't like her friends.
It's just that, she wants the time which totally belongs to you two.
You dare say i'm wrong to say that?
One word : THINK.
If i'm wrong, go ahead and scold me,
I hack care (:
I only wish that u can dont' make her angry,
Treat her better. And treat her as ur gf.
When ppl bully her,
Save her, protect her.
When ppl say her,
Ask them stop.
You're lucky enough to have her as a stead.
And i'm lucky enough to have her as a friend.
CJ, treasure her ba.
Don't wait till you lose her, then u regret.
It's too late. Rmb, THINK.

Posted By : Koh Yan Qun (: