I love you!

Missing the time where me, ChinJie, KahMing and Darrell slacking together at..

The time when we wait for KahMing, we play cards, craping about jokes and the time where me and ChinJie were still together..

But we, 4 will be back together somehow.. I think when school reopen, we will be back again..

Later i'm going to meet my primary school friends at 3. We are going for movie..

But before meeting them i'm going SK first.. To buy things.. After that go meet them. After movie, i suppose it's time to meet Jillian and co. (:

Counting down for new year..

After that i should be meeting either Alvin and RongJun or ChinJie and Darrell..

Hope that next year will be a better year than this.. Cause because of somebody, i get lots of troubles this year.. If you got read my blog, i also don't think you know i'm saying you. d:

Darrell so pathetic.. Now finding people slack.. OCJ, you ask him after tuition go your house for?

Then now you not at home.. Sibei boliao siia.. Must let him know ma.. Then now he alone.. Finding people slack.. Haix.. You do things always like that de..

Okay, i'll end here. I need go prepare le.. Buaiis..

Morning meet this boy boy.. Slack at his house till 3 and a friend of mine.

After that i go 448 meet Darrel, Zanna, Jackie, Jacob and Melvin.. (:

Today slack with them very bored.. Cause got nothing to do.. Darrel not in good mood also..

I don't want say too much cause not my problem..

Slack with Darrel and co. till 8 then meet Alvin and RongJun..

The 2 guys in front.. Handsome? (:

Slack till 10.40 cause of my father.. Nbcb.. Don't want talk about it..

Tomorrow maybe meeting my primary school's best best friends. (: Or friday.. Don't know yet..

If never meet then i'll be staying at home, do nothing.. Until at night then go out.. Cause count down..

Most probably tonning. I fucking don't want stay at home lor..

To you if you know who you are..

I lost feel for you le.. Seriously.. Beginning to hate you cause the way you treat me.. You treat me differently from how you treat your friends..

What's the problem with you?

Aren't i your mei? Haix..

Btw, i can't don't care you but, of course, my feeling for you lost liao..

But still you are my friend which i treat you the best.. Better than others..

Cherish what you have from your friends.. When you lost them..

I don't know what you will become siia.. Haix..

Somehow, i find that we look a like.. Hui bu hui?

Maybe we are siblings.. Hahas.. Impossible la.. I think too much..

Morning went SK to pass key.. After that went home..

Stay at home whole day sibei siian.. Cannot tarhan..

Now, i'm just waiting my father go work at 7 then i go house downstairs find Alvin and RongJun slack.. I will return RongJun his phone.. Then i'll use the samung one..

Alvin, when you see this don't angry, okay? Just lend him la.. Anyway, i will change phone soon.. If he can buy one then i return you the phone . If not just lend him.. Can? Nevermind.. I'll tell you when i meet you..

I also miss hanging out with this 3 little girls..

But school is going to reopen soon, so i can see them.. Yay! (:

Happy! Can see Alvin, Jillian, RongJun and more..

But i hate it when school reopen.. Must wake up early again.. Late go home tio gan again.. Sibei siian.. But whatever.. I happy can liao..

Today didn't went out because everybody's not free. Okay, except Jillian, Melvin and PeiLin.. They asked me out but i don't want cause i already told my father i'll be at home.. (:

See, i do what i say.. (:

Lastly to you, if you know who i'm saying..

You say you don't like me, but from what is see you still do..

I'm already half way done giving up..

You don't want me give up, tell me.

Don't do little moves, that makes me confused..

It's difficult to forget you but i'm trying to..

I tell you whatever i'm thinking..

What about you? You don't.

And i just don't know what you're thinking..

But of course, i can still read your mind for sometimes..

Anyway, stay happy.. (:

Labels: I'm forgetting you..

See.. This idiot acting cute behind my back.. d:

Hope he didn't see. Mai angry ohhs.. (:

Slacking this few days.. Nothing much.. Morning meet Darrell then go CJ's house cause technician coming his house.. Cause under my name so i have to be there.. Haix..

But okay la.. Nowdays keep having heart to heart talk with him.. But he is always lying.. Haix..

See jiu can know le.. I be his GF for 6 months and 6 days is not for nothing..

See how he do things can know what he thinking.. That idiot, can't hide things from me de.. Hehes.. I know him too well le..

Today had dinner with his mum, she was like who is Joanna. Then he say is his GF and also ask her why her antenna so long know everything.. I was there laughing..

I want post his umglam photos! Hahas.. See le don't angry hor.. (:

Then he wear a non-degree specs which i bought but he took it cause he want.. His mum say very ugly.. She was there laughing like hell..

After dinner,

I don't want say his mum unglam things.. Hehes.. Later CJ tell her then i get kill from her. Hahas..

Anyway, meeting my primary school friends lately.. Only took one of the guys photo.. Sibei ah hai..

Ah hai hor? Hahas!

Anyway, -, don't come here kpkb.. Wu ji just put name.. Don't so humji.. NO LIFE!

Will update asap.. (: Byess..

Yesterday afternoon went to OCJ's house, he ask me call Dell but in the end he is the one calling. Cause i don't know how to call.. d: So he ask me go for nothing. Hahas..

The Dell people say tomorrow they will be coming if it's available.

After calling, i went to his sister's room to sleep, but didn't sleep at all due to OCJ disturbing.

So we just talk the whole time. Then he went to call his mum after that he called her.

Pangseh me again. I get pissed off and went out of his house.

Then i go 7-11 buy cup noodle cause i didn't eat the whole day. OCJ say want cook for me but wait for him to cook will die!

After eating i go back find him, he just finished cooking noodle. So idiotic. After that we went down to slack awhile, took alot of photos of me and him.. All like tou pai de but he got pose behind my back. Make me laugh like hell..

But before we went down, guess what he gave me? His house key. Lols! Cause he ask me early go his house. But at night he tell me he go AMK see dai ji!

He this fucker! Always pangseh me, make me sad. See me cry you happy issit? I just decided to wait for you and this kind of rubbish happen again. I SERIOUSLY HATE THE WAY YOU TREAT ME!

You want me help you i help. I never say don't want. Okay, sometimes i do but it depends on the situation. But you, have you ever thought of my feelings? ARGH, FORGET IT, SAY ALL THIS TO YOU, YOU ALSO DON'T KNOW AND YOU WON'T CARE.

I'm just gonna be a nice person to you the last time..

Labels: I'm still waiting..

Today sucks!

Mei got problems with KM. Darrel Neo (not Darrell Loy) got problems with his GF.

It's like the whole day i'm trying to cheer people up..

It's not like i'm not willing but i can only help my mei and KM..

I seriously don't know what KM thinking. So mei, i try to help okays?

Not supposed to go out today but still went out.

Met Darrell Loy first, went around Hougang Mall there to find straws.

Found. Then keep spamming CJ's phone.. But didn't answer. Haix..

Suddenly he called, so went to his house to find him.. Slack slack..

Around 7 come to my house here slack slack. Until 10.30.

YanQun go malaysia, mei go genting.. I confirm miss die them de. ):

Darrel, you take care! Don't think too much.. Get well soon. Hope to see you tomorrow. (:

Mei, you also take care. Don't think too much also. I'll help you as much as i can.. (:

Labels: So troubled.. I'll wait for sure now..

I dislike being hate by him..

I swear i won't do it again, okay?

So don't hate me..

Morning wait my father go out, meet Darrell then meet Darrel, my primary school friend.

After that Darrel met his girlfriend. Then we go pi gum..

Around 4 go find ChinJie, that idiot Darrell seh like fuck..

If not ChinJie won't know i pi lor. FUCKED!

Then he ignore me.. Haix.. But i guess tomorrow will be fine already..

Tomorrow meeting Darrell then go ChinJie's house.

Seriously hope he not angry siia!

Go slack slack.. If have maybe meeting Darrel. See how first..

Cause ChinJie don't reall like them i think.. Haix..

Argh! So fan!

I'll end here.. Bye..

Labels: I'll be waiting for you.. I think..

Ton yesterday, with two guys.. Morning went church..

Slept at church while the person is talking.

Bobian, cause of some guy who didn't want to go home..

So accompany him till morning..

They went off around 8.30..

I found out, that he still like me..

But he got stead le, so what can i do?

But i know, what he is thinking.

He told me, i still know him the best.

Hahas, and i told him, 6 months and 6 days, i'm not being his girlfriend for nothing.

Now i can get back all his thoughts, i'm happy..

At least got people know what he is thinking..

I already give up on him.. I don't feel sad for him already.

It's a good thing.

Yesterday around 5 go his house because he ask me make his blog..

At 6 plus order Mac and eat. Darrell paid.. I didn't eat cause my grandma cooked my dinner.

Around 8 then leave his place go slack till 10.30 like that then take bus home with Darrell.

At 11.45, Darrell called and chat for 15 minutes. Then he go sleep.

Today will be slacking with Darrell again after 1 because he got tuition..

Yesterday i messaged my tuition teacher, he now then reply.

I asked him when start tuition. He said next week.

But i haven't buy books so after i buy books then start.

I told him my maths i got A2, he say me zai.

Where got zai? A2 ONLY EH!

Can say my expectation very high about maths.. Hahas..

Also to Psrby: Kindly just fucked off.. I don't know who the hell you are and i'm sure i didnt offend anyone. Is your name really funny that you dont dare put? You scared people laugh at your name?

If not what are names for? LMAO.

I stay in love by Mariah Carey

I Stay In Love
Baby, I stay in love with you

Dying inside cause I can't stand it
Make up break up can't take this madness
We don't even really know why all I know is baby I
Try and try so hard to keep our love alive
If you dont' know me at this point then I highly doubt you ever will
I really need you to give me that unconditional love I used to feel
It's a mistake if we just erase it
From our hearts and minds I know

We said let it go but I kept on hangin' on
Inside I know it's over you're really gone
It's killing me cause there ain't nothing that I can do
Baby I stay in love with you
And I keep on telling myself that you'll come back around
And I try to front like 'Oh well' each time you let me down
See I can't get over you now, no matter what I do
Baby baby, I stay in love with you

It cuts so deep it hurts down to my soul
My friends tell me I ain't the same no more
We still need each other
When we stumble and fall how
we gon' act like what we had
Ain't nothing at all now
Hey, what I wanna do is ride shotgun next to you
With the top down like we used to
Hit the block proud in the SU
We both know our heart is breakin'
Can we learn from our mistakes
I can't last one moment alone, although I know

We said let go but I kept on hangin' on
Inside I know it's over you're really gone
It's killing me cause there ain't nothing that I can do
Baby baby, I stay in love with you
And I keep on telling myself that you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well" each time you let me down
See I can't get over you now no matter what I do
Baby baby, I stay in love with you

We said let go but I kept on hangin' on
Inside I know it's over you're really gone
It's killing me cause there ain't nothing that I can do
Baby baby, I stay in love with you
And I keep on telling myself that you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well" each time you let me down
See I can't get over you now no matter what I do
Baby baby, I stay in love with you..

This my feelings right now..
Even though i think you won't even bother to see..

But since you say, i must say things clearly so that you can know.
So i tell you.

Clear enough?

My mind just keep thinking of you i don't know why..
You always pop out..

What can i do to forget you?!

Really pissed off by myself..

Some said, love is like a drug.
when you end a relationship,
you feel hurt,
there's no way others can help but only yourself.

I know i will, cause i trust myself.

Labels: ILoveYou

Now seriously no mood.. Haix..

Right now, i'm trying to find myself back.. I've lost the innocent good good me..

I've been in a terrible state lately..

I don't know what to do..

But to find myself back..

I'm really lost..
How can i get my way back?

Slacking lately.. Went shopping around 3 to 7.

Meet friends to slack.

Now super sad.. Angry also..

I seriously don't know what happen..

You just called and say..

Aren't i good enough?

I don't understand..

I always treat you the best i can..

Even better than my family..

But this is what i get..

Seriously sad..

I just don't get it..

Is she better than me?

I just want to see you happy..

As long as you are happy..

I'm fine with it..

Lately, i have not been feeling well.. I got no appetite. Not because of OCJ..

Yes, we break le. But of course when just break it hurts. But I'm fine now.

See him happy, i also happy.

My grandma and sister went overseas, so i'm staying at home with my brother. I'm doing the house chores.. Siian.. Haix.. But bo bian.. I guai ma.. Hahas.. Want slack late can call me oh.. Okays? After 7 i can go out. Hahas..

Now there's one thing that keep bothering me.. It's a secret.. But some of you know..

I don't know what to say.. Will update again ASAP..