Siian.. Can't go out unless it's 4. So fucked up lor! Why can't i have my freedom back?

I don't know why but these few days i'm in a bad mood. Thursday was pissed off by KM. Yesterday night was CJ. This morning is him again.

 I'm wondering:

Seriously, can somebody give me all those answers? I'm very confuse right now. You know, yesterday i was so sad that i cry till i sleep. I don't know why but my tears keep dropping and never stop. My heart is hurt over and over again. I just hope he can cherish evrything i do for him before he regret. Cause i know it will be sooner or later. I really had enough you know? I regretted already but it's too late, things can't stop now or it will be hurt even worst. So, if can, i just hope that my feeling fade for you and just end like that. But i find it impossible. What can i do to not have feelings for you? Tell me. 

Even though it's my birthday soon. But i'm not happy. I want nothing from you, just think about my feelings when you read this. 

One more thing, you say you will change. But have you changed? If you think so let me know. I'll let you know the truth, if you really had. 

If you think yoy have found the one that you love, MAKE SURE they love you back.